Days 11-13

Over the hump.  I ate pretty well on Day 11 and Day 12, having just tiny cheats in the evening, like a Luxe Milk Ghirardelli Square.

Then I found an AMAZING TOOL.  If you have a Droid, go to the market and find a free app called MyFitnessPal.  It’s a calorie counter, and it lets you input foods and it tells you how many calories there are.  It even tallies things like Miso Salmon at the Cheesecake Factory (which I’ve been curious about because I’ve been craving it.

I’ve been logging my food intake there, so I probably won’t keep up with it here anymore.  I will just say that I ate my normal, calorie-restrictive chunk of foods

 

*Normal meals*

and some 7-grain crackers and peanut butter. 

This morning’s weight, 162.7.

Grrr. I can’t take it anymore.

Did great today.  Went to Lady Bird Johnson Wildflower Center.  I made my packed lunch, ate it, and life was good.  We came home and got ready to watch Pirates of the Carribean, and I just lost it.  I started to cry, and said to Curtis “If I don’t have chocolate soon I’m going to lose it!!”  Life is really boring without food, which is essentially what is happening to me.

So I ate.  I ate and ate.  Crackers, Peanutbutter, a little chocolate.  Peeps, ramen noodles, and a cadbury egg.  Curtis tried to make me 1/2 cup of green olives and a little bit of onion soup to help me with my cravings without too much fat (before I ate all of that) but it just didn’t cut it.

I’m starting over tomorrow.    Today sucked. 

Day 10 morning–Booby Traps

It almost seems like I sub-consciously don’t want to do this diet.  I was SO good yesterday;  didn’t cheat at all.  Then I forgot to take my homeopathic drops last night that stimulate weight loss.  The result?  162.3 yesterday morning, this morning 163.  GRRR.

Day 9… continued

Dinner:

1-3.5oz Buffalo Steak, seasoned by my wonderful husband and it was DELICIOUS
1 cup brussel sprouts (which were also delicious)

Evening snack:

1 rice cake, and later a small apple

 

I ran across a recipe for Pear French Toast in my recipe box, and wow.  I really wish I had it.  And I also want a Hot Pocket because Curtis was quoting Austin Powers.  I’ve never even had a Hot Pocket.  But I want one, and I want one now.

Day 9. So. Hungry.

I don’t think I’d mind dying right now because I think heaven has food.  It was my deepest wish to have this diet become my new way of life, and to realize the error of my ways with all of the foods that I eat.  I was confident that I would learn a new way, where I could have an avocado and a rice cake for lunch and be satisfied.  I’m not wanting that idea right now.  I want a big fat plate of Mexican food from Jardin Corona.  I want a giant Tablespoon full of Nutella.  Even a spoonful of peanut butter would be incredible.  I’d like some chocolate chip cookie dough, and perhaps some whipped cream on top.  For dessert, Cheeseburger Helper.

I had a 5-Hour-Energy yesterday morning, and those usually last me about a day and a half.  I still have the energy and clarity of mind today, but the weird, not-wanting-food feeling is still in my stomach, disguising itself as dire hunger.  They’re just a step away from each other anyway.

I had no breakfast;  good for me.  Just like I’m supposed to.

Lunch:

6 pieces of butter lettuce with 4 grape tomatoes and Bragg’s Liquid Aminos as a dressing
3.5oz turkey lunch meat with mustard
1 rice cake
1 small apple

I would really like for my dinner to be a Cinnamonster cinnamon roll with extra butter and some movie theatre popcorn with extra butter.  But it probably won’t be.

Days 7 & 8. Better, but not perfect.

On Day 7 (Friday) I only cheated a little, and (I thought) safely. 

About 10am I had my lunch carb (1 rice cake) because I had a headache, and wanted to take some ibuprofen.  Having tried taking ibuprofen on an empty stomach before, I decided it was better to just eat my carb early.  So I did.

Lunch: 

unremarkable (I forgot to blog about it last night, but I know I was good)

Dinner:

unremarkable (see above.)

evening snack:  hungry as hell, so I ate about 15 little grape tomatoes, thinking that would hopefully fill me up and be a fair splurge.

Morning of Day 7 (the day after the tortilla chips):  164.2lbs

Morning of Day 8 (the day after eating a morning carb and a bunch of little tomatoes):  164.1lbs.

 

I guess they really have this damned diet down to a science.  I need to just quit cheating, because I was dropping about a pound and a half per day before that.

 

Day 8:

Weight check in a.m.:  164.1lbs

a.m.  Five-Hour Energy.  Doc said not to, but I was really feeling sluggish, so I did anyway. 

Lunch: 

3.5oz  buffalo burger
1/2 cup mushrooms on top of it.

Wasn’t terribly hungry (presumably because of the 5-Hour Energy) so I decided to put off my carb and fruit until I felt like I needed it.

Dinner:

I skipped dinner.  I ate my lunch carb (10 pretzels) around 4pm, then my lunch fruit (1/2 pear) around 7:30pm.

I’m in bed now.  I better have lost some weight tomorrow morning or I’m going to feel like this is for naught!

Day 6–off the wagon again. But planned.

Ick.  I knew tonight would be a challenge, and I promised myself that I wouldn’t get angry at myself if I cheated.  Today was Tiffany’s last day at the Cat Hospital and we took her out for drinks after work as a last hurrah.  I know that the only “right” way to do this diet is to stay away from places like Jardin Corona, my favorite local Mexican hangout.  But what am I going to do?  Ask Tiffany to stay for another month because I am short on willpower?  No.  So I cheated a little.  But I think tomorrow will be fine.

Lunch:

3.5oz of fat-free cottage cheese
1/2 cup yellow bell peppers
10 pretzels
1 kiwifruit

Mid-afternoon snack:

1 rice cake

Dinner:

3.5oz of turbot (a white fish that I’ve never heard of before)
1/2 cup of yellow bell peppers (I do love my bell peppers)
1/2 cup red grapes

After-dinner cheat:  about 12 tortilla chips and about 1/4 tsp of Queso.  Not a horrific cheat, really… I mean, 12 tortilla chips was fairly over the top, and I feel a little gross now after eating them.  But I kept the queso well under control. 

I’ll have to upload a photo next time I go, but I went for my first vibration/detox foot bath appointment today.  The vibration machine helps to shake mobilized fat loose, and then I do an ionized foot detox.  I soak my feet in a saltwater with an ionizer machine in there, and it basically sucks the toxins out the soles of your feet.  I seriously thought I was going to barf when I saw what the water looked like after 20 minutes.  It started out clear, but looked like used motor oil with stuff floating in it.  It seriously made me nauseous.

I’ve been so perky at work, but so tired at night when I get home.  I don’t know if that’s because there are new trainees at work and I’m emotionally drained, or if the detox is beating me up.  I guess time will tell.